Thursday, May 13, 2010

It all starts two days before you turn 25

Well not exactly. I knew in September of 1998 that I was pregnant. It was not planned but my ex husband and I were happy and were thinking of all of the wonderful things we would do with our child and how much fun we would have being parents.

Now please understand before you read the following that I love my children and cannot imagine my life without them at all. All blogs will deal with my frame of mind at that time and my reflection on it now.

So on December 18, 1998, two days before my 25th birthday my life forever changed in an earth shattering way. Not at all welcome and it shook me right to my core. Now being my first pregnancy I had no idea what to expect, or that the ultrasound should not have been scheduled for an hour. It would have been nice if the Dr had told me that they thought there might be twins, but left that part out. So the ultrasound tech is pressing hard on my very overfull bladder when she says, "Do you see what I see?" I said no...because I was half blinded with pain of needing to go to the bathroom so bad I just about peed the table. My ex husband who we will just call S, said I see two...I said nooooooooooo, and she said yes!! TWINS!!

I think I was just numb. I could not even focus and not sure how I made it to the bathroom to finally release my bladder. What I do remember is crying in the waiting room. Saying I was not sure how I was going to handle one baby, and two was just insane. It all wore off within 24 hours. I had in fact baby sat most of my teenage years and was more than prepared for feedings, diapers and tantrums. It was just the initial shock that got to me. Soon my mind was wrapped around the news and that it was more than likely one of each. A boy and a girl. The possibilities seemed endless to me at that point but I knew I needed a bigger apartment! Plans were soon in place to move by February since we were not sure what risks we were going to encounter with the pregnancy.

Three baby showers later come March I was more than ready to not be pregnant anymore. However the birth will wait for another entry.

So....that is how this all started..two days before my 25th birthday.

Happy birthday to me!

Days to go 365
Entries to go 364

1 comment:

  1. I can't even begin to imagine the thoughts that run through your mind at 25, learning you are having twins! Double blessed, yes, but the mind goes to all the things that can go wrong, the double feedings, knowing with one baby sleep is non-existant. Great blog so far chica I am loving it!